JEALOUSY

Within facing an interesting point: Jealousy - I realized that Jealousy is 'behind' every 'problem' we are faced-with as Humanity, within as without.


I faced jealousy when I saw for instance that:
My partner would be able to be 'funny' and laugh with other beings but 'not with me'. Or when my partner would give 'more attention' to another being than 'me'. Or another is able to apparently be 'light' and 'careless' and me apparently not.
Or for instance I experienced jealousy when I saw that another was able to 'lead' Guizzy, the new pony, without Guizzy running-off, when I myself was not yet able to do-that. Looking at this point specifically, I see that the point that creates the Jealousy is the point of comparison: where I would create an image/definition of myself as a conclusion from how others apparently perceive/think of me in COMPARISON to another, and what 'conclusions' others would apparently make 'about me' in COMPARISON to another. I saw the point of 'fearing to apparently be seen as 'not as good' or 'worse than' or 'not as capable'' etc. - when in-fact I am the one judging myself, defining myself as 'lacking' etc.
Which of course is a complete fuck-up if one allows oneself to follow such thoughts, 'calculations' and 'interpretations' that are based-in: Comparison.



So - I saw that the main points in relation to Jealousy are:

COMPARISON (between friends, family/siblings, in terms of 'gender', 'intellect', money/'status', possibilities for 'success' etc.)

COMPETITION (in school, in society, family/siblings, gender/looks/body-shape/appearance, in terms of 'abilities' etc.)

RIVALITY / RIVALRY (within family/siblings, friends-circles, societies, groups, leaders, countries etc.)

It seems like Jealousy is the Cause - Comparison/Competition/Antagonism/Rivalry etc is the Play-Out - and Spitefulness is the Effect.
The Cause being 'who we are', Playing-Out 'who we are' through 'what we Do' and 'what we Participate-in', creating an Effect Equal and One as 'who we are':
Creator - Creating - Creation --- the 'holy'-Trinity as Self - 'a Self' defined in Separation from the Whole, in Separation from Life.


Whether Spitefulness or Jealousy is at the 'beginning' or the 'end' of this 'holy'-Trinity = is Irrelevant: because the Result is an 'infinite'-Cycle, a 'Vicious-Circle', a Trap - a Cycle of Abuse and Denial of Life.



JEALOUSY is based-on the Differences of what we perceive to HAVE and NOT-HAVE - - and the FEAR of being 'less', that goes hand-in-hand with the DESIRE to be 'more'.
Thus what is evident in all of this is: the 'inherent Inability' to be EQUAL, the
unwillingness to SEE that underneath the 'make-up', the 'form', the 'gender', the 'intellect', the 'money', the 'access-oires', the 'appearance'/the picture - we ARE EQUAL.

The point that is not allowing us to Realize that we ARE EQUAL is the point of Possession through and as Jealousy - wherein we will support the accepted separation and the Polarity of/as 'superior'-'inferior'-Perceptions - by going-into Comparison, Competition, Antagonism, Rivality.

And why? Because we are seemingly not able to recognize our own 'value' as Life, not able to Accept ourselves and look at the practical perspective of 'our own process' and 'another's process' - - which is in-essence a process of Equalization, Amalgamation and REALization - possible only through Forgiveness: through the letting-go of Everything we have defined ourselves by and as, letting-go of 'who we perceive we are', letting-go of our apparent 'specialness' and the need to be 'someone', the need to be 'important', the need for 'power'.


Thus, if one is able to self-honestly look-at and see the points of Jealousy - - these points 'carry' within them as them the practical-Key to their 'transcendence', meaning:
In allowing Self to See the existent Jealousy - Self-Intimacy is possible. In allowing Self to See 'who I am' within that Jealousy - Self-Honesty is possible. In allowing Self to See the Consequence/Side-Effects of Jealousy - Self-Forgiveness is possible.

In the actual Stopping of the projected 'feelings', beliefs and perceptions that cause and support Jealousy - and within Realizing the SELF-Responsibility to make Self Real as Life, thus Equal to ALL expressions as One - - it can be seen that the points of Jealousy can be turned-into a Gift for Self within and as the Process of Equalizing ourselves and stopping the Separation we have accepted and allowed within ourselves;
Realizing that: 'if another has 'more' or is 'more' able - I do not need to judge this point, I do not need to have an emotional reaction toward this point - Let me see things for what they are :
If another is 'more able' - it is because 'they' are actually allowing themselves / pushing themselves / willing themselves to 'do-it'/'be-it' - - and thus I am equally able-to - and I may look at How 'this' or 'that' expression/application is possible and become-it Equally. No-one is standing in my way, but my own 'hold' onto self-definitions, perceptions, beliefs, fears, desires and denials.



In many cases I have found that the points I was experiencing jealousy towards were 'not real' and that the beings I was jealous-of were merely 'showing-off' something, or 'acting-out' something from the starting-point of wanting attention or 'trying to be something'. When I realized that, jealousy stopped.

This is not to say that there is any excuse or justification for Jealousy /for allowing the 'feeling' of Jealousy in any way whatsoever. We must will ourselves to Stop Jealousy in all its forms, whether it is jealousy of something 'real' or 'not-real' - because it is never about the 'other'. Jealousy is always showing us something about ourselves - 'who we are' as what we're accepting and allowing within ourselves.


Jealousy exists through a Comparison between: an accepted self-definition based-on the perception of: 'Lack', 'less-than', 'not-having', 'not good-enough', 'unloved', 'unworthy' etc. - and the desired-Projection of something 'better', 'more', 'more valuable', 'more worthy', 'more abundant', 'more able' and so-on.

It is obvious that at the bottom of every such 'point' as an 'experience' (made-'real' through perception/belief) - one will find: Jealousy.

'Money' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Power' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Luxury' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Marriage' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Relationship' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Friendship' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Having-Children' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Having-Pets' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Consumerism' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Sports' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Studying' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Working' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Science' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Spirituality' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Healing' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Cults' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'War' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Murder' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Rape' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Abuse' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Poverty' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Survival' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
...



...
'Disease' is a Manifestation of Jealousy

Jealousy is the human-Disease; the Human is Dis-Eased because of Jealousy.

Jealousy is 'functioning' within and as Energy.
Accumulation of Energy and the Desire for Energy is a Manifestation of Jealousy - - we have become 'Energy-Vampires' as a Manifestation of Jealousy out of our Fear of Lack, Fear of Loss, Fear of Not-Having, Fear of 'Death', Fear of Not-Being - - which in itself is in-fact a confirmation that we are Not-Being, we are Not-Real, because we are not Sustaining ourselves, we are not Sustaining Life - we are feeding-off each-other - - we are feeding-off what's left of Life within ourselves and each-other - - and then we Die.

What is there really to be 'jealous-of' within this human-existence?

And what stands in our way of becoming Real, Being Real - but ourselves and that which we believe we are: the Energy we follow, the Thoughts we follow, the Emotions we follow, the Fear we follow, the Regret we follow.

What stands in our way of Seeing what Matters - but our Choice of 'what we give attention-to', what we 'feed', what we dare to regard as 'important' and 'substantial' - when we are in-fact denying ourselves the very Substance that we are.

Labels, Medicine & Pharmaceutics VS. MANKIND?

LabelSlavesLabels...

...`bipolar´, `schizophrenic´, `ADHD´, `manic´, `depressive´, `psychotic´, `hysteric´, `borderline´, `multiple personality´= all are Aspects that exist within every human being, more or less, due to Separation (i.e. the Split of Self for the sake of Survival in this Reality), Suppressions, Denial, Lack of actual Support and real Communication within the basic System-unit: the Family.

Those that are exposed to a reactive environment or traumatic experiences that will `trigger´ the manifestation of a particular aspect - are labeled, categorized, marginalized.

Interesting the greek word Kategoria in the word Categorization = Judgment, Blame.

No wonder that `labeled´ individuals will get the message that `something is wrong with them´ and will inevitably either start blaming & judging themselves, or will go into anger & rebellion and will in both cases end-up in a never-ending inner struggle.

And look how this is the case for almost Everyone!

There is something wrong with this World!

The whole World is `bipolar´ - "BUY POLARity - it is for SALE - SAIL AWAY - Don´t be HERE, so that we can `feed´ you until you are fed-up and give-up - we even make the right PILL(ow)S for you! - Sleep, Sheep, Sleep - Accept, Accept, Obey, Buy, Buy-Buy..."

The borderline of our Minds is where we keep ourselves apparently `Safe´ while we `Play´ until we become Prey to the bipolar movements of the Mind:

up and down

up and down

up and down

round and round

right! wrong!

no, right!

no, wrong!

"who am I, doc?"

Psychiatry/Psychology is `allowed´ to define `conditions´ and `label´ individuals - and this is done in a away that will make a person believe that: "You are not able to take Self-Responsibility, so - there, I´ll give you a Reason not-to, let´s put you `outside the margin´, you are `special´, you are EXcused - so cute, let´s EXcute you for life!"

All for Money...

Money-->NoMe-->Eco-no-Me

What is not seen, is that the `birth´ of a `condition´ through Labeling supports the manifestation of the `condition´ in-fact, and has the interesting side-effect that it opens the door for further `conditions´ / further Labeling.

In studying Viruses, it is seen that a Virus will develop and `evolve´ according to the vaccine/medicine. The Virus is always a step ahead.

An interesting question would be: What comes first - the Virus or the Medicine?

MeDiCine-->MeDieSin-->MeDieSoon

Pharmaceutics-->Pharma is Ace and U are Ticks

Man´s ACCEPTANCES, i.e. giving-away Self-Responsibility and placing Trust into `specialized´ forces and systematic treatments, and the fact that the System tricks Man into accepting & beLIEving his own powerlessness & defeat = implies that a real Change must come from Man, on individual-level, through realizing Self-Responsibility and looking at the Consequences of his Acceptances and Allowances to understand his own Creation as himself.

It is Who we are that creates this Reality.

Time to Stop. And Breathe.

Looking at our accepted `powerlessness´ - Man´s Self-Defeat... How did we come to `understand´ i.e. define `power´ only in Separation - only in relation to another point (other people, the system etc)?

In accepting this, we will attempt to `prove´ our `power´ through constant competition and Inner struggle - instead of realizing Self-Power Here as Who we are in every Breath. The Self-Power to remain Here as Breath no matter what I am facing.

The Self-Power to not-react, and to instead direct myself in CommonSense as Equal to another or a situation.

The Self-Power to not have to `have the last word´.

The Self-Power to not have to `win´.

The Self-Power to not have to `prove myself to others´.

The Self-Power to `know thy self´.

Birth-->Brith-->Breath ....Breathe-in

dEATH --> brEATH ....Breathe-out

What is happening in-between...?

An interesting fact:

In our Sleep, we `lose´ Awareness, we `lose´ Self-Direction, i.e. the Dream `happens to us´. We are not aware of our Breath, we are not breathing - The body-System is breathing for us, automatically.

Is Sleep a Simulation of Death?

It is said that: As long as one is not awake and directive in the Dream - one is actually asleep when `awake´.

Observe how, even in the `wake´-state, we do not Breathe in Awareness. We are busy in our Mind. We are busy with Emotions. We are busy calculating `who we are´ in each particular situation we face. We play the game by the name.

Observe how each inner Reaction (anger, fear, anxiety, hate, being `in-love´, desire etc.) always `come´ with particular breath-Patterns. Reactions are automatic, they are conditioned. So has become our Breath - automatic.

The Body breathes as a Automated System.

Between the first In-breath and the last Out-breath: a whole life goes-by where we allow a System to take-over and breathe for us. Because `this is how it is´. Because `everybody does it´. Because this is `the way´. The way of the World...

We are not keeping ourselves Alive, we are not breathing Life, we are not breathing Ourselves. A System is keeping us alive ( ...considering our own self-abusive attitude towards the body, one wonders why it even breathes for us).

What happens if we Stop the Systematic Automation of breath?

We have proven that, if one Stop and Breathe when a Reaction come-up, one can direct oneself: No I will not follow a reaction. I am Here, I breathe.

We have proven that, if one is stable as Breath in Awareness Here - one is able to Stop the `effect´ of any common Drug: in ONE Breath.

Breath is HERE. If I am here as Breath in every Breath - I am HERE.

What does that imply?

What does it imply about Breath?

What does it imply about Awareness as Breath?

What does it imply about Who we are?

What does it imply about the Mind?

What does it imply about Self-Direction?

What does it imply about Self-Power?

What does it imply about Self-Realization?

What does it imply about Who we really Are?

What does it imply that we All actually breathe the same Breath?

What does it imply about Equality and Oneness of Life?

What does it imply about CommonSense and the Equality of Life that is `missing´ in-fact?

What does Self-Realization as Breath imply?

Is perhaps the Breath, as the Common Equal Point we All share the Key to Self-Reaization as Life? - the Realization that SELF = LIFE = EQUAL = ALL - where `power´ as we know it can no-longer exist

Is perhaps the Breath, as the actual physical `representation´ of Systematic Polarity (in-out, in-out, in-out) the Key to stand Equal to the Nature of Polarity - and Transcend Polarity?

Is perhaps the Breath, as the actual physical `representation´ of the polarity of `life&death´ the Key to stand Equal to `life´(the System) and Equal to Death - and Transcend Death?

Is perhaps the Breath the Key to Transcend `Time´?

Is perhaps the Breath our Only point of what is Real, Actual Here?

Is perhaps the Breath the Key to Stop the System from within and bEarth ourselves as Life?

Is perhaps Who we Really Are to be found in Breath?

Each-one can only find-out for oneself.

Each-one will have to find-out for oneself.

A time come where each-one will have to STAND in the midst of self-created Hell.

A time come where each-one FACE oneself and what has been accepted and allowed.

A time come where each-one will have to HEAL oneself. Breath Here will be all we have.

HERE --> HEAL

BREATH--> bEARTH