JEALOUSY

Within facing an interesting point: Jealousy - I realized that Jealousy is 'behind' every 'problem' we are faced-with as Humanity, within as without.


I faced jealousy when I saw for instance that:
My partner would be able to be 'funny' and laugh with other beings but 'not with me'. Or when my partner would give 'more attention' to another being than 'me'. Or another is able to apparently be 'light' and 'careless' and me apparently not.
Or for instance I experienced jealousy when I saw that another was able to 'lead' Guizzy, the new pony, without Guizzy running-off, when I myself was not yet able to do-that. Looking at this point specifically, I see that the point that creates the Jealousy is the point of comparison: where I would create an image/definition of myself as a conclusion from how others apparently perceive/think of me in COMPARISON to another, and what 'conclusions' others would apparently make 'about me' in COMPARISON to another. I saw the point of 'fearing to apparently be seen as 'not as good' or 'worse than' or 'not as capable'' etc. - when in-fact I am the one judging myself, defining myself as 'lacking' etc.
Which of course is a complete fuck-up if one allows oneself to follow such thoughts, 'calculations' and 'interpretations' that are based-in: Comparison.



So - I saw that the main points in relation to Jealousy are:

COMPARISON (between friends, family/siblings, in terms of 'gender', 'intellect', money/'status', possibilities for 'success' etc.)

COMPETITION (in school, in society, family/siblings, gender/looks/body-shape/appearance, in terms of 'abilities' etc.)

RIVALITY / RIVALRY (within family/siblings, friends-circles, societies, groups, leaders, countries etc.)

It seems like Jealousy is the Cause - Comparison/Competition/Antagonism/Rivalry etc is the Play-Out - and Spitefulness is the Effect.
The Cause being 'who we are', Playing-Out 'who we are' through 'what we Do' and 'what we Participate-in', creating an Effect Equal and One as 'who we are':
Creator - Creating - Creation --- the 'holy'-Trinity as Self - 'a Self' defined in Separation from the Whole, in Separation from Life.


Whether Spitefulness or Jealousy is at the 'beginning' or the 'end' of this 'holy'-Trinity = is Irrelevant: because the Result is an 'infinite'-Cycle, a 'Vicious-Circle', a Trap - a Cycle of Abuse and Denial of Life.



JEALOUSY is based-on the Differences of what we perceive to HAVE and NOT-HAVE - - and the FEAR of being 'less', that goes hand-in-hand with the DESIRE to be 'more'.
Thus what is evident in all of this is: the 'inherent Inability' to be EQUAL, the
unwillingness to SEE that underneath the 'make-up', the 'form', the 'gender', the 'intellect', the 'money', the 'access-oires', the 'appearance'/the picture - we ARE EQUAL.

The point that is not allowing us to Realize that we ARE EQUAL is the point of Possession through and as Jealousy - wherein we will support the accepted separation and the Polarity of/as 'superior'-'inferior'-Perceptions - by going-into Comparison, Competition, Antagonism, Rivality.

And why? Because we are seemingly not able to recognize our own 'value' as Life, not able to Accept ourselves and look at the practical perspective of 'our own process' and 'another's process' - - which is in-essence a process of Equalization, Amalgamation and REALization - possible only through Forgiveness: through the letting-go of Everything we have defined ourselves by and as, letting-go of 'who we perceive we are', letting-go of our apparent 'specialness' and the need to be 'someone', the need to be 'important', the need for 'power'.


Thus, if one is able to self-honestly look-at and see the points of Jealousy - - these points 'carry' within them as them the practical-Key to their 'transcendence', meaning:
In allowing Self to See the existent Jealousy - Self-Intimacy is possible. In allowing Self to See 'who I am' within that Jealousy - Self-Honesty is possible. In allowing Self to See the Consequence/Side-Effects of Jealousy - Self-Forgiveness is possible.

In the actual Stopping of the projected 'feelings', beliefs and perceptions that cause and support Jealousy - and within Realizing the SELF-Responsibility to make Self Real as Life, thus Equal to ALL expressions as One - - it can be seen that the points of Jealousy can be turned-into a Gift for Self within and as the Process of Equalizing ourselves and stopping the Separation we have accepted and allowed within ourselves;
Realizing that: 'if another has 'more' or is 'more' able - I do not need to judge this point, I do not need to have an emotional reaction toward this point - Let me see things for what they are :
If another is 'more able' - it is because 'they' are actually allowing themselves / pushing themselves / willing themselves to 'do-it'/'be-it' - - and thus I am equally able-to - and I may look at How 'this' or 'that' expression/application is possible and become-it Equally. No-one is standing in my way, but my own 'hold' onto self-definitions, perceptions, beliefs, fears, desires and denials.



In many cases I have found that the points I was experiencing jealousy towards were 'not real' and that the beings I was jealous-of were merely 'showing-off' something, or 'acting-out' something from the starting-point of wanting attention or 'trying to be something'. When I realized that, jealousy stopped.

This is not to say that there is any excuse or justification for Jealousy /for allowing the 'feeling' of Jealousy in any way whatsoever. We must will ourselves to Stop Jealousy in all its forms, whether it is jealousy of something 'real' or 'not-real' - because it is never about the 'other'. Jealousy is always showing us something about ourselves - 'who we are' as what we're accepting and allowing within ourselves.


Jealousy exists through a Comparison between: an accepted self-definition based-on the perception of: 'Lack', 'less-than', 'not-having', 'not good-enough', 'unloved', 'unworthy' etc. - and the desired-Projection of something 'better', 'more', 'more valuable', 'more worthy', 'more abundant', 'more able' and so-on.

It is obvious that at the bottom of every such 'point' as an 'experience' (made-'real' through perception/belief) - one will find: Jealousy.

'Money' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Power' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Luxury' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Marriage' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Relationship' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Friendship' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Having-Children' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Having-Pets' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Consumerism' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Sports' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Studying' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Working' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Science' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Spirituality' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Healing' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Cults' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'War' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Murder' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Rape' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Abuse' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Poverty' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
'Survival' is a Manifestation of Jealousy
...



...
'Disease' is a Manifestation of Jealousy

Jealousy is the human-Disease; the Human is Dis-Eased because of Jealousy.

Jealousy is 'functioning' within and as Energy.
Accumulation of Energy and the Desire for Energy is a Manifestation of Jealousy - - we have become 'Energy-Vampires' as a Manifestation of Jealousy out of our Fear of Lack, Fear of Loss, Fear of Not-Having, Fear of 'Death', Fear of Not-Being - - which in itself is in-fact a confirmation that we are Not-Being, we are Not-Real, because we are not Sustaining ourselves, we are not Sustaining Life - we are feeding-off each-other - - we are feeding-off what's left of Life within ourselves and each-other - - and then we Die.

What is there really to be 'jealous-of' within this human-existence?

And what stands in our way of becoming Real, Being Real - but ourselves and that which we believe we are: the Energy we follow, the Thoughts we follow, the Emotions we follow, the Fear we follow, the Regret we follow.

What stands in our way of Seeing what Matters - but our Choice of 'what we give attention-to', what we 'feed', what we dare to regard as 'important' and 'substantial' - when we are in-fact denying ourselves the very Substance that we are.

"The Secret" that isn´t one - and yet it is...

"Secret 1": Who is `They´?

HOW do We create `them´?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aj6rxxXhVSI

"Secret 2": Why you don´t know

what happens after DEATH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nd11d2i0Sk4

"Secret 3": TruthSeekers? SuperHeros? -The deLIGHTful Truth...

HOW MUCH LONGER ARE WE GONNA WAIT FOR OURSELVES?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2WCigGFUb44

Labels, Medicine & Pharmaceutics VS. MANKIND?

LabelSlavesLabels...

...`bipolar´, `schizophrenic´, `ADHD´, `manic´, `depressive´, `psychotic´, `hysteric´, `borderline´, `multiple personality´= all are Aspects that exist within every human being, more or less, due to Separation (i.e. the Split of Self for the sake of Survival in this Reality), Suppressions, Denial, Lack of actual Support and real Communication within the basic System-unit: the Family.

Those that are exposed to a reactive environment or traumatic experiences that will `trigger´ the manifestation of a particular aspect - are labeled, categorized, marginalized.

Interesting the greek word Kategoria in the word Categorization = Judgment, Blame.

No wonder that `labeled´ individuals will get the message that `something is wrong with them´ and will inevitably either start blaming & judging themselves, or will go into anger & rebellion and will in both cases end-up in a never-ending inner struggle.

And look how this is the case for almost Everyone!

There is something wrong with this World!

The whole World is `bipolar´ - "BUY POLARity - it is for SALE - SAIL AWAY - Don´t be HERE, so that we can `feed´ you until you are fed-up and give-up - we even make the right PILL(ow)S for you! - Sleep, Sheep, Sleep - Accept, Accept, Obey, Buy, Buy-Buy..."

The borderline of our Minds is where we keep ourselves apparently `Safe´ while we `Play´ until we become Prey to the bipolar movements of the Mind:

up and down

up and down

up and down

round and round

right! wrong!

no, right!

no, wrong!

"who am I, doc?"

Psychiatry/Psychology is `allowed´ to define `conditions´ and `label´ individuals - and this is done in a away that will make a person believe that: "You are not able to take Self-Responsibility, so - there, I´ll give you a Reason not-to, let´s put you `outside the margin´, you are `special´, you are EXcused - so cute, let´s EXcute you for life!"

All for Money...

Money-->NoMe-->Eco-no-Me

What is not seen, is that the `birth´ of a `condition´ through Labeling supports the manifestation of the `condition´ in-fact, and has the interesting side-effect that it opens the door for further `conditions´ / further Labeling.

In studying Viruses, it is seen that a Virus will develop and `evolve´ according to the vaccine/medicine. The Virus is always a step ahead.

An interesting question would be: What comes first - the Virus or the Medicine?

MeDiCine-->MeDieSin-->MeDieSoon

Pharmaceutics-->Pharma is Ace and U are Ticks

Man´s ACCEPTANCES, i.e. giving-away Self-Responsibility and placing Trust into `specialized´ forces and systematic treatments, and the fact that the System tricks Man into accepting & beLIEving his own powerlessness & defeat = implies that a real Change must come from Man, on individual-level, through realizing Self-Responsibility and looking at the Consequences of his Acceptances and Allowances to understand his own Creation as himself.

It is Who we are that creates this Reality.

Time to Stop. And Breathe.

Looking at our accepted `powerlessness´ - Man´s Self-Defeat... How did we come to `understand´ i.e. define `power´ only in Separation - only in relation to another point (other people, the system etc)?

In accepting this, we will attempt to `prove´ our `power´ through constant competition and Inner struggle - instead of realizing Self-Power Here as Who we are in every Breath. The Self-Power to remain Here as Breath no matter what I am facing.

The Self-Power to not-react, and to instead direct myself in CommonSense as Equal to another or a situation.

The Self-Power to not have to `have the last word´.

The Self-Power to not have to `win´.

The Self-Power to not have to `prove myself to others´.

The Self-Power to `know thy self´.

Birth-->Brith-->Breath ....Breathe-in

dEATH --> brEATH ....Breathe-out

What is happening in-between...?

An interesting fact:

In our Sleep, we `lose´ Awareness, we `lose´ Self-Direction, i.e. the Dream `happens to us´. We are not aware of our Breath, we are not breathing - The body-System is breathing for us, automatically.

Is Sleep a Simulation of Death?

It is said that: As long as one is not awake and directive in the Dream - one is actually asleep when `awake´.

Observe how, even in the `wake´-state, we do not Breathe in Awareness. We are busy in our Mind. We are busy with Emotions. We are busy calculating `who we are´ in each particular situation we face. We play the game by the name.

Observe how each inner Reaction (anger, fear, anxiety, hate, being `in-love´, desire etc.) always `come´ with particular breath-Patterns. Reactions are automatic, they are conditioned. So has become our Breath - automatic.

The Body breathes as a Automated System.

Between the first In-breath and the last Out-breath: a whole life goes-by where we allow a System to take-over and breathe for us. Because `this is how it is´. Because `everybody does it´. Because this is `the way´. The way of the World...

We are not keeping ourselves Alive, we are not breathing Life, we are not breathing Ourselves. A System is keeping us alive ( ...considering our own self-abusive attitude towards the body, one wonders why it even breathes for us).

What happens if we Stop the Systematic Automation of breath?

We have proven that, if one Stop and Breathe when a Reaction come-up, one can direct oneself: No I will not follow a reaction. I am Here, I breathe.

We have proven that, if one is stable as Breath in Awareness Here - one is able to Stop the `effect´ of any common Drug: in ONE Breath.

Breath is HERE. If I am here as Breath in every Breath - I am HERE.

What does that imply?

What does it imply about Breath?

What does it imply about Awareness as Breath?

What does it imply about Who we are?

What does it imply about the Mind?

What does it imply about Self-Direction?

What does it imply about Self-Power?

What does it imply about Self-Realization?

What does it imply about Who we really Are?

What does it imply that we All actually breathe the same Breath?

What does it imply about Equality and Oneness of Life?

What does it imply about CommonSense and the Equality of Life that is `missing´ in-fact?

What does Self-Realization as Breath imply?

Is perhaps the Breath, as the Common Equal Point we All share the Key to Self-Reaization as Life? - the Realization that SELF = LIFE = EQUAL = ALL - where `power´ as we know it can no-longer exist

Is perhaps the Breath, as the actual physical `representation´ of Systematic Polarity (in-out, in-out, in-out) the Key to stand Equal to the Nature of Polarity - and Transcend Polarity?

Is perhaps the Breath, as the actual physical `representation´ of the polarity of `life&death´ the Key to stand Equal to `life´(the System) and Equal to Death - and Transcend Death?

Is perhaps the Breath the Key to Transcend `Time´?

Is perhaps the Breath our Only point of what is Real, Actual Here?

Is perhaps the Breath the Key to Stop the System from within and bEarth ourselves as Life?

Is perhaps Who we Really Are to be found in Breath?

Each-one can only find-out for oneself.

Each-one will have to find-out for oneself.

A time come where each-one will have to STAND in the midst of self-created Hell.

A time come where each-one FACE oneself and what has been accepted and allowed.

A time come where each-one will have to HEAL oneself. Breath Here will be all we have.

HERE --> HEAL

BREATH--> bEARTH

Man´s FactTree

Where the Tree of Life´s become the Tree of Knowledge
Where only those survive that´s been to college
In the cottage of our Mind we breed our Pride
and for our Ego we fight
Where we don´t see Man´s Plight
because we Are it

Where Fear pull the gear
and man Hide behind his fear
Man don´t Hear
Life´s call - he´s gonna fall,
no, he Fell. He´s become the Spell
What story to tell of this Nutshell
Life is Hell, Man´s Hell

Where the Tree of Life´s become the Tree of Knowledge
Where Earth´s streams have become the Sewage
and the FactTree of man´s Mind produce footage
of the Dark-age of his soul, of a MessAge:
We eat our own Shit and we Fuck with our Minds
We seek and seek and Nothing satisfies
We´re like flies, we don´t see our own Lies
Every second a Child Dies - No surprise?

Practical BREATH

BREATH is the key to Everything

an Inbreath at birth - an Outbreath to death

...inbetween...

looking at the characteristics of the physical breath - one could call it `god´

it is always Here

it is always Everywhere

always Equal for All

...

what do we actually breathe?

is it air?

could it be everything?

could it be substance?

do we breathe with our lungs?

could it be that we breathe with the whole body?

what IS breath?

what is practical Breath?

how can we use Breath in/as self-assistance and support?

observe breathing-patterns

a sudden Inbreath as when one gasp for air - indicates that a breath has been missed

then -fascinating- it´s a moment of Fear (a sudden Inbreath)

instead of Here

be Here with the Breath

as the breath

as presence

stable

sound

here

breathe in - - - embrace all as one as equal

hold here - - - self-honesty

breathe out - - - self-forgiveness

hold here - - - let go

Breath is the `connection´ `between life & death´

ONE BREATH: inbreath - outbreath

ONE BREATH: life - death

what does that practically imply about breath?

what does it imply about life & death?

what does it imply about polarity?

what does it imply about who we are?

what does it imply about why we are here?

...

Man as Sketchbook

we each are like a sketchbook, where those that have gone before us write-in what & who we're supposed to be...the script and the rules of 'the game' - the same rules that were passed onto them by those who have gone before them.

So the world is never-changing. we are accepting the unacceptable -and so it cycles. different stories, same shit.
shame.

we're living a li(F)e.


When we dare to erase all that input and wipe the book blank - we realize that we are actually creator, director.

now we gotta write our own script.
we can't use the tools/rules that were used for the script we erase(d) - because we'd only be creating another version of what has been. even a polarity-version of 'what has been' would still be supporting the system, the 'forces at work' that see the world as a game, humanity on a chessboard - and the game never-stops as long as the figures keep moving, black against white, white against black, winning and losing and winning and losing, in fact just losing, over and over and over again.
there is no stability, no living spirit; only the game and man's urge to win.
...the 'human race'...

it looks like the game has automated itself, the 'big players' long-gone in their own delusion - the only winner: the game itself.

stop the game - now we gotta write our own script.

obviously there's one thing we gotta consider in doing that: it must be livable by all equally, it must consider all Life equally.
the point of LIFE as equal value, as the equal substance we all have in common - is the point that
has been missed.
it is obvious common sense that all Life is equal, but we are not equal to that, we do not live the value of Life.
WE ARE the 'missing link'. the 'missing link' is HERE.

now we gotta realize/materialize the tools we need to support Life in actuality, in fact - to support who we all really are as Life, equally.

what can we do?

be response-able for Life. support ourselves and those in our world in SELF-HONESTY as Life.
we gotta think 'outside the board'. this is not a fucking game. fuck the rules. fuck morality.
there is no morality in this world. it is a lie.
stop power-games, stop blame. there is no-one to blame; blame is merely abdication of

self-responsibility. we are the ones that 've been accepting what is here - the world is showing us who we are. time to say No More!

stand-up and live common sense. use what is here, use the game against itself, support in creating a win-win situation for all Life, each one starting with self, each one in our own 'little' world.
be direct, accept no limitation, accept no justification, accept no separation.

stop fear.
stop greed.
stop beLIEf.
stop dreaming.
stop self-abuse.
stop hiding.
stop blame.
stop revenge.
stop your mind that tells you you are special.
stop your programmed thinking patterns.
think for yourself in common sense.
think for Life.

stop limitation.
LIVE.
accept nothing less than who you really are.

we ARE the tools.
we ARE the canvas, the painter and the brush.

wipe the canvas.
script a live-able Reality for you as for all.
script Living as practical Equality.

so that what we script may stand for eternity - with no shame, no regret.
so that who we are stand for eternity - worthy of Life.
Equal and one as Life.

Does Life choose to be Life?

When ´choice´ is lived as who I am, it is no longer ´choice´ - it´s who I am.

Thus I can say, no choice exist, there exist only direction: either one is Self-directive, or one is directed.

One cannot be Self-directive, unless one stands for and as Equality of Life. All those who perceive themselves to have ´power´ or be ´in control´ of themselves and/or others: are not free beings, they are in fact controlled and directed.

Life IS the directive Principle as Equality and Oneness - the Law of Existence.

Each is self-responsible, each is in fact responsible for ALL LIFE, because all Life is equal as one.

Thus each will see their own ass - consequence is inevitable, it is already created, it is already here.

In Common Sense it is obvious:

Self-Direction is only possible within and as Self-Honesty, whereby Self=Life.

It was said that the only real, actual choice is between Self-Honesty and Self-Dishonesty. This is only valid in Absoluteness:

If Self-Dishonesty is lived - ´self-honest choices´ are not valid - every dishonest ´choice´ invalidates all Self-Honesty.

If I need to ´choose´ to be self-honest - then Self-Honesty is not yet who I am.

The points of Self-Honesty and Direction clearly go together:

In Self-Honesty, Self = Life. Self direct Self as All as One as Equal as Life - because this is who I am = not a choice. It is a living expression of Self.

In Self-Dishonesty Self is defined of Systems in separation from Life - and thus Self is lost and has no choice but to be directed by systems, be it those of one´s own Mind.